The Big F.

What up,

So next week will be the due date of my probation period. How time flies. I am actually scared thinking about it. Once my probation ends, I would most probably be offered a permanent position in my company. I have to think carefully about my plans for the future woahh..since I will be living in my decision for a looooongggg time..but on the bright side, confirmation comes with an increment, so more savings for my plans ^^. 

Ok enough about job. Let me rant about more interesting stuff which is my favorite tv show. I have many favorite tv shows (GG, Project Runway, Suits etc..) but there is one show that I want to talk about today which is The Biggest Loser. I'm sure you are aware of that show since it's very popular (kalau xtau g google). Why do I like it? Simple : It's motivating and educating and gives me food for thought. You see, I had always struggled with my weight since I learned the meaning of word FAT. I used to be taunted, I couldn't control my appetites (my mum nagged me about it), clothes were not that easy to find, and the immature boys that I liked never liked me in return (that means I was immature too since I liked them, I was in high school, figures). So this goes on until I went to college where I was at my peak of my overweight condition. I was 67 kg!!!! T.T (cuti SPM, I ate more than usual hahaha). But still, I did not have any initiative to lose any weight or to control my habit of eating and ignored the fact that I could not wear pretty clothes as they would not fit me..and this went on until I was in first year where when I looked at my pictures, I saw the baggy big jeans, my chubby cheeks, and the potential of double chin coming up. That double chin did it! Something snapped in me..I liked my face just fine, no need for extra chin, thank you. So I decided to do something about it (my kept on thinking, no double chin..no NO NO!! urgh!! >.< . So what did I do at first? Well, I tried to cut a bit of my meals, tried to jog for a bit, and that lasted for only 2 weeks. I did not have enough willpower yet. Until my semester break. I was lolling on my couch, eating pisang goreng while flipping through channels until I found a show called The Biggest Loser. I was interested to know about it. Then I saw them, all those overweight people wanting to lose their weight with the help of expert. They wanted to lose weight not just because they want to look good, but they also wanted to shed all the diseases that came with their obesity. Then it struck me, I only wanted to lose weight due to vanity reasons, but I had never thought of healthy reasons, which is more important (you can't be pretty if you are dead you know), and I was somehow chastised by that thought. So I watched the show, how the people struggled with their eating habits, their near-to-death intense workout everyday, all those tears, sweat, and misery, only their sheer willpower keeping them from walking away from that show. And then I saw their result. Damn, they lost a lot of weight within a week, more than I lost in 2 months. I was sort of embarrassed by that thought. Then it snapped again. So I researched more on the internet about how to do exercise correctly and how to lose weight healthily. I never trusted all those diets that they claimed to be working, I only trusted the old school ways, eat moderately and exercise. Some of my friends believed that Ribena and sugary drinks can make you lose weight. I say BULL. Sugar turns to fat if not used, duh. And coincidentally, I was going to OBS and Gunung Kinabalu soon so I had to exercise, like it or not. Therefore I started my regime, jogging and careful with the food that I took. I started jumping ropes again..This went on for two months, and I saw the results. I lost 4 kg within 2 months, and I was overjoyed. Maybe it's not much like the contestants in Biggest Loser, but my routines were not as intense as theirs. After that I went to OBS and thankfully I came prepared, because it was challenging, especially kayaking (tangan cm nk pth dh oiii) and after OBS comes Kinabalu (my legs can still remember the pain of climbing down =.=) and when I came back to Miri, my friends were surprised to see me being skinnier than before. I did not notice it that much, but once I got on the scale, I was quite surprised. 57kg. 10kg lost in a few months, imagine that. I danced and jumped from happiness. It was during that time I wear all the clothes I never get to wear before. I eat moderately and went for jog every week until I reached 55kg and all was butterflies until RAYA came =.=. 2 weeks spent in my home during raya gained me back 5kgs (that was fast). and after raya, I was busy with exams and did not exercise so I went back to 60. and then came my final year where I was busy and I admit, lazy to exercise, so I went to 64 again aaaaaa!!! But right now, I am in the process of losing my weight again. My current weight now is 59 kg. I am striving to reach 55kg again, and who knows, maybe I will be able to reach 52kg which is my dream weight. But to those who are striving to lose weight, I would say that all you have to do is eat moderately and exercise well. Please do not go for fasting excessively, skipping rice or breakfast and not drinking water and stuff, you will only harm your body and skin. Do not strive to be skinny, strive to be healthy, then you will lose weight happily and healthily. Ok, phew, pnt gile tulis. That's it for now. I'm off for lunch with mummy at Jusco. Time to indulge. Buh-bye~


Peace out,
B

Worldly Plans

Afternoon peeps,
Here I am, sitting in my cubicle..feeling full and sleepy after lunch (nyums) and suddenly i feel like ranting to keep me awake muahahahahaha. Well, whattaya know, it has been almost three months since I've started working (I actually lasted despite having evil colleague and my lack of knowledge ). Now that I think of it, what are my plans for the future. Everybody should have at least a 2 year plan when they have started to have a life on their own. I do have a 2 year plan, just that it's not only one plan, it's more like planS (yes, I'm a fickle person). I do not know yer whether I would be a successful geologist in the future, or maybe I would jump to another major.. I mean, we can never be certain of our own future right? But one thing for sure is that I have a plan to travel around the world. I have started that plan since I was in Curtin but as you know, 500 per month is not exactly luxurious so I have settled on going around Malaysia first, a bit of touring in SE Asia Region and i have also travelled a bit to West thanks to the sponsor of la familia. But that is not the whole world yet. I have yet to travel to exotic places such as Brazil and Africa. And my ultimate dream is to travel around Europe and UK. So my goal right now is to save some money for me to go around the world. For me, that is more important than spending for shoes and clothings (Hopefully I can sew my own clothes soon ^^,). I think we can gain knowledge by three things, one is to read books, two is by socializing and three is by traveling. That's why I think it's important to travel. We gain the spice of life by experiencing cultures, mindset of society so different from us and of course, I get to wear pretty clothes during my vacation (baru worth it :D). So that is my ultimate plan, question is, will it be a 2 year plan?a 5 year plan? or more? I guess we have to depend on my savings and whether air asia will do promotions or not. heheh. And I mean to persuade some of my friends to do some saving as well..I mean, traveling alone is kinda boring and not to mention more costly. It would be fun to have friends to travel and experience new things together. So sape2 nk g jejalan moh la kite start saving ye! Ok I'm done ranting. Time for work. Tuh taa~


Peace out,
B.

Chances are

What are the odds that I would crush on someone who does not even know me? And no, it's not some actor or some imaginary dude who is ultimately beyond our reach. Just a normal guy like all of us. Well  it seems the odds are in favor with me considering that  I crushed on somebody who doesn't know I exist. Honestly I didn't know how that happened. I just saw him and instantly all is butterflies and sunshine. It felt like OMG he's Mr Perfect. And that's how it began. I constantly thought about him, find out more things about him, even stalking him on facebook (yes, my obsession runs for miles but let's face it, everybody stalks everybody's facebook these days, don't deny it!). The funny thing is, I never had the nerve to get him to notice me or to declare my interest in him. I just feel like it will be impossible for a guy like that to have any interest in a girl like me (sounds cheesy but i'm not kidding) so I never gathered any courage to try and talk to him(I did say hello once, but ran away when he said hello back, WTH is wrong with me >.<) Then again I don't think I would be able to have any coherent conversation with him since I would be too nervous to think straight let alone converse. So my one-sided delusional crush goes on for sometime until I found out he's not single anymore recently. I wouldn't lie saying I got over him that instant and that I'm okay with it. But it's not as if I cried night and day knowing that fact. I just feel, well, what if I ignored my cowardice and just talk to him before, maybe things would have been different? Would there be any chances? Regrets, yes, that's what I experienced. Then again, I just think that it just wasn't meant to be. But one thing I learned from that experience is that life does not wait for chickens. If you have something to say, just say it. If the guy does not like you back, well, you will only be embarrassed and awkward for a few months and you can get over him without any doubts. If he does like you, kudos for you. If you never said anything, no one will know about it. This ain't some korean movie or fairy tale where the guy does everything and understands the fair lady's mind. Life is reality so get REAL. Don't be like Cinderella waiting for her shoe cause chances are, you will be walking with one barefoot for a long time and blisters ain't pretty, trust me. Be like Ariel who went to great lengths for someone she really like(but i'm not saying you should sacrifice your voice, be smart for God's sake). Be positive. Just because you can't drink the wine doesn't mean you can't appreciate the bouquet. Until now,seeing his smile still makes my heart beat faster and I would smile and be all spirited to find Mr Right which is more important than Mr Perfect. Okay, I'm done ranting and off I go to do my work. Adios.


Peace Out,
B.

It takes TWO to Tango

What up,
Due to many reasons (accident prone driving method, late for work, toll and PETROL spend), I have rented and moved to my new apartment in Subang. It's quite lovely and cheap monthly rental with Astro and aircond included, and it's literally 5 minutes from my workplace. So that's where I'm staying during the weekdays. However, my weekends are spent in Seremban since I like to go home and I attend sewing classes during weekends. You see, I have always dreamed of being a fashion designer since I was old enough to know such profession existed. I like sewing clothes for my barbie, more like putting them together and create something that I know others don't have. I liked sketching females in various clothes, more than I liked studying in my classes (I sketched in my class, pretending to write down notes) until my mother found it out and hid all my papers away so that I'll study seriously. It was so serious that I actually applied for fashion course in Uitm and got the offer. However, fate has an irony sense of humor and tempted me with a thing called Petronas Overseas Sponsorship Program and so,I went for that. But as you are all aware, the so-called overseas program is actually in Miri (If that don't beat it all). But we are not here to talk about why Miri is the new oversea. So I spent my last 4 and a half years studying geology, which is an exciting course, mind you, and calls for your adventure nature. I have enjoyed my study years (except for the exams),completed my degree and landed a job as a geologist in my current company. All is well as it is hard to get a job these days, especially if you're fresh meat graduate. But after working these past few months, I have been thinking, do I really want to do geology alone for the rest of my life or should I pursue the thing that I loved more than anything, which is fashion. I have always loved to wear pretty clothes since I was a child (my mum was partially responsible for that) and I feel that if you look good, you feel good and more confident. I've always chosen my clothes with care even when I'm just going to classes or meeting with lecturers in campus. Even my lecturer complimented me on my sense of style (yes I'm bragging, got problem?don't read my blog then) and I like the feeling knowing that I looked good and presentable. Problem is, sometimes it's hard for me to shop because it is hard to find a garment that I really wanted. I like to watch Gossip Girl and also korean dramas because their clothes are so out-of-the-world like and stylish. Most of the clothes that I imagined myself wearing is quite hard to find in a typical shop. If I see it, it's too expensive for my mere pittance of salary.Hence, I wanted to make my own clothes that fits my imagination precisely and make it one of a kind garment,thus explaining my attendance in sewing class. Yesterday was my first class. I learned the basics which is operating machines, jahit tepi, sembat and stuff. Then my teacher said i'm fast (actually i've known how to operate sewing machines and my sembat has always been impeccable since my school years, but I refrained from mentioning it to her cause that will make me look less genius muahahahha). So I went to the next round which is sewing pockets and necks. It was actually quite easy once you get a hang of it but you have to be patient and be committed and detailed. Next week I will advanced to the next level and hopefully by a month, I will be able to start making baju kurung. It will be hard to juggle two things (work and sewing class) but hey, if you can't handle it, beat it. No one is forcing you, and I want to show that you can still pursue things that you love even though you did not get the chance to do it earlier. You just have to persevere and tell yourself you want it soooo BADDDD. So for those who want to do something they love, just go for it! But make sure you have a plan before pursuing it alright? Okay, enough babbling, I wanna eat my cheesy pizza for breakfast and do calorie regrets later.


Peace out,
B.

Survival 101

G'day everyone (creek creek *no answer).. Today I am writing about something that I experienced at work. People always said that we should treasure our university life since working life is much tougher and less freedom compared to the latter. I find that ABSOLUTELY agreeable as I have experienced the harshness of working life first-hand. (Hoo-ray). It was not about the toughness of the job (all jobs are hard, that's why we are paid for it,duh ), but it was more of the environment and the people that I meet. Hence here are some tips to survive in your working place (be it office or rig or at site) :

 

ONE : Mad-Eye (Please google if you do not know who that is) always said CONSTANT VIGILANCE! So adhere yourself to that advice as there are many people who would smile and be all fuzzy at you but at the end of the day you'll never know what they are really thinking.

TWO : Always keep your emotion under control. I have always been emotional whenever I feel like it but now I am learning to be the master of my own emotions as there are many eyes watching you and bursting out or even being too much of a joker would not give a good impression of yourself, and no matter what people said, FIRST IMPRESSION is always IMPORTANT! COMPRENDE? So learn to be calm and confident.

THREE : The boss is always right. Again, I emphasis ALWAYS. No matter how horrible your boss is, (demanding, not sensible at all etc), you must not argue with her/him. It would not do you any good. If you must make a point, do it in a calm, rational and professional demeanor. But remember, never let yourself be bullied. There's a fine line between being firm and being stubborn. Find out where the line is and make use of it.

FOUR : Be independent. You are no more in the university where you can party all night long and skip classes the next day and count on your friends to help you in your study. You need to perform in your job so that no one can find faults on you so asking around or being helpless is not going to get you anywhere. Learn to survive and do the job without any complain ( at least not in front of you boss or colleagues) and always put extra effort in it. It will get you far no matter what job you are doing.

So those are my tips to survive in the working world. Hopefully I will survive and come back in one piece once I'm done with my task at the moment. So that's it for now.

Peace out,

B.