Sunday 16 December 2012

A sprinkle of optimism in the midst of calamities~

What up peeps,

Been a while since my last post. Been busy with many things you know. Life is hard, indeed. But now, I am happier. I have not exactly ridden my inner conflicts fully, but I am trying my best. Time is a very strong ally with me now to heal things and get me back up on my two pretty feet (vain sket). I have gotten a permanent job. Where it is, I'd rather not disclose it here, so publicly. It's not as easy as I thought it was initially, but I don't really feel too depressed about it like I did with the previous job. Oh, and it's not geology. Funny how things work out heh? The pay is not too bad, and I kinda like the environment, which is the most important thing to me. I've worked for a couple of months, barely had time to rest coz my weekends are filled with classes and activities. But the main point is, I AM HAPPY!!

Happy. That, I am. But since I've worked here, it got me thinking, about the purpose of life. The purpose of work. We work 5 days per week (for normal people), so 70% of our lives are spent on our workplace. Then it got me thinking, why do people work? Ok, the obvious reason would be to earn money. I'm all for that. After all, money talks in this world right? But it got me thinking, different people have different goals and purposes in their career. Some want to advance and build a career because that is their definition of success. Some just wanted a job to have money to buy food and pay for rents every month. Some just want a job to kill time and look for other opportunities. I'm not saying any of them is wrong, cause those things are subjective. It's a prerogative that each human has and I'm not going to judge any of it. But the more I see the working class people, the more it got me thinking, what is my prerogative? What do I want to do with my life?

I have seen my friends, working in fields that are popular and promising in our country. They have money, they have careers, everyone is looking up and in awe with their career path. But ironically, some of my friends are not really that happy with what they are doing, even though they supposedly have everything. So, what is the point of us working actually? We want money, yes, but if we are not happy, what does it mean? So are we to do something that we don't like for the sake of money? Is it worth it?

I don't know about others, but for me, I am still optimistic about the thing that I love and make it as something that I do for a living. I love geology, but somehow fate has its twisted way of not letting me in that field. No worries, I have managed to get into another field. But somehow, I wanted more. I don't want my life to be only a routine of doing job, come back home, earn salary, get married, have children, then die. I want my life to be colourful, full of joy, unpredictable, adventurous and most importantly, HAPPY. So I am still struggling to achieve what I love most, and to make it as something that I do for a living. You all know what I love right? So I am still studying, slowly. But the most important thing is, I will not give up. I'll become that freaking turtle in the race. Slow, but steadily going. I am going to do something that I love for a living and  I sure as hell will make my life interesting. I will go traveling, eat good food, do crazy stuff, find someone to share my life with and most important of all, I will make sure that I have no regrets in my life. It's too short for me to become pessimistic and not appreciating it.

Ok, that's all I want to share and blab for today. I'm too lazy to put any pictures here. Just go to my facebook and stalk my pictures. Habis cerita. Well, I'm gonna sleep now coz tomorrow is Monday. Time to work people. Night. Let us all be happy and optimistic. Always. 


Peace out,
B.