Nab's little Comeback!

Heyya howdy,

I'm back, after almost 4 years of not writing anything *blows some dust*. I have a lot to share with y'all ( I got a bit obsessed with IG story, and I basically have my rant there, then I remembered I actually have a BLOG. Typical Bella *rolls eyes*)

Anyways, I've been doing great. I've been in Expedia for almost 5 years now (time flies fast huh), 2 years with Lodging dept and now almost 3 with Local Expert team (I love my team) and tbh, I love Expedia as a whole. The work, the benefits, the flexibility and of course, the office itself ( I love stuffing meself with free snacks and drinks all day long, the evidence is seen on my never skinny thighs)

I did some traveling, had some new hobbies, and I don't really think or care about what people think of me, or my job, or my field anymore. Because I am happy at the moment with my life and where it's going. Up until last year, there were still people commenting how stupid I was to leave my own field, which supposedly brings more money, and instead of stammering about my own reasons like I used to, I told them to shove it in places where the sun doesn't shine and pursue it themselves if they want it so bad. So eventually the comments stopped ( at least the ones I'm aware of). Hm, I guess you can't be nice all the time, people need some bitch-slapping to get the point at times.

Anyways, I will be back active (hopefully whenever I have the time), and I will post random things in my life from time to time, be it traveling, hobbies, food, loved ones, and even BTS! I just need to vent and IG story can't keep up with me lol.

So see you stalkers around!

B.

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A Sophisticated Nail Polish Or just Plain Ol' Nail Buffing.

What up,

I'm back!! So I've been living my life, experienced some traumatic moments, had so many happy moments and so on. So today I'm gonna write something that has absolutely nothing to do with manicure. Oh that title? Just something aku buat as metafora (xtau g baca sastera form 4 balik).

I am going to talk about FRIENDSHIP. AHA, THAT'S RIGHT KIDS!

I am the type of person who does not have too many close friends. Why is that? Because I get too attached to people I am close with. Therefore I am always careful whenever I choose friends. I have seen so many types of people, banyak jenis perangai and I have discovered that for me, there are two types of friendship :

1) The Nail Polish Friendship.

What iz zat??

Basically it's the type of friendship that you formed pretty fast and the things you share are all shiny and well, basically superficial and polished. This type of friendship only last for so long as you don't have that much depth. Cause you just, ya know, applied the polish just like that. Over time, the polish is gonna chip whenever you stumble upon something sharp, or maybe you accidentally bit your nails. You may also get bored with the same color and then you can just suddenly decide to apply some remover and get a new color. Besides, the superficial smell of the polish is so strong that I hate it. Ya know what I'm saying. Nail polish can give your nail some pretty awesome colors but it's gonna get ruined unless you are really2 careful. Being careful all the time is pretty tiring aite? Same as your happy friends can make your life wonderful at times but when you encounter something bad, they're just gonna chip away. That's why I call em' polishers. Cause they're not gonna treat your nails, just there to make it pretty from far uhuh.


2) The Nail Buffing Friendship.



Okay what the heck is this?? "Nail buffing is the act of polishing the nail using buffers of successively finer grit in order to make nails look more consistent and shiny" (Wikipedia, 2014). So basically you just polish your nails to look shinier and healthier. Now buffer friends are your long term friends. They're gonna help you get out of your sh!t whenever needed, they love you just the way you are, might insult you here and there at times. You might get into fight at times but you will always be friends no matter what. Just like friendship, if you don't buff your nails now n then, they may look dull but you can always get in touch again with the buff to make it look shinier than ever. And it's au natural, no smell of superficiality, these buffs. Ain't that cool?

I have some nail polish and I have some buffers. But at the end of the day, my buffer is all that matters cause I can keep em' for long and I love something that's all natural. There are some people who buff their nails and apply nail polishers on their buffed nails. Well, if they are happy with that, then who am I to judge that aite? Just don't force me to wear the same style that's all :D~


Moral of the story? Eat more veggies. Then you would have such pretty nails you don't need no buffer or polish to keep em' pretty. 

Related moral of the story : Choose your friends wisely ;)


Peace out,

B.

Bits of Truth in K-Dramaland.

What up!

Today I iz writing about a new drama I iz so sooo sooooooooooo in LOOOOVEEEEE...which is.......MY LOVE FROM THE STAR!!!!!


What's it about?? Okay, it started when an alien from other planet, the hero, landed on Earth 400 years ago. God knows why for some random reason he picked Korea and not Malaysia. Anyhoo, the hero since then had lived for 400 years on Earth, looking ageless and fineee as he is until he met a Hallyu star, the heroin, and both of them fell in love. The catch? Hero's gotta leave Earth within 3 months or else he dies. Sounds like a cheesy storyline right?

Okay, I've always loved K dramas (good looking heroes yg kite boleh usha 6packs time shower scene, hilarious illogical moments, pencarutan berjela2 etc..) but this one special drama has captured my heart which even replaces You're Beautiful which is my all time favorite stress releaser. Why is that??

A) The actor, Kim Soo Hyun (omo oppa, saranghaeyo \(^,^)/ ) is so dayymmm FINEEE (love the eyes, the abs, the cute face, okay everything physical bout him) and he sure can act. His character is so funny and he sure delivered the act well. His character is a quiet lonely person who hasn't got any friends since he is kinda cynical ( u tend to be like that once you lived to see the real world, I feel ya baby) and then he gradually warms up to the heroin.

B) The heroin, Gianna Jun, is also very very preetttyyyy and she also has commendable acting skills. I mean, I laughed like hell at her funny moments, and I freaking cried as well when she cried so emotionally. Damn girl, you got some skills. Her character is a girl who is not exactly selfless or nice at first glimpse, has a terrible temper, I-don't-care-what-you-think-of-me-I-live-by-my-rules attitude, and likes to curse (my friend, where u been?). But on the inside, she is actually very sensitive and very lonely. She is attracted to the hero since he helps her out so many times and she became a better person gradually.

C) I love the storyline, it's so funny on the comical relief moments, so heartbreaking during the emotional intense moments. It's light but not too light. It's got some useful jigs you can actually capture and think about.

What are they?

1) Being surrounded by people does not mean that you will not be lonely. And money does not guarantee a total happiness. It can only buy you things that make you feel better and improve your living cost. The rest is up to many other factors.

2) The drama teaches me that all the time in the world will feel meaningless to you if you only lived for the sake of living. When you learn to live in the moment, you will then learn to appreciate every precious moment you have. When you are with the person you love, you just appreciate every moments you have with him/her because any moment could be your last moment with them. When you are doing something you love, you will learn to appreciate it when you are living in the moment because you might not be able to do it anymore tomorrow or the next day or even the next hour.

 I learned that a happy ending is not what you will get in the future, I learned that another happy ending can also be defined by appreciating every moment that you have right now, whether it's with the loved ones or with the things that you loved. That's the real deal. Because we never know when we are going to die. 

Therefore, just live in the moment kayyy..... :)

Here are some pics for your eyes to feast on the drama. *drools*

This is the part where he pretended to be her legal advisor to shut her agency up. Me likeyyy the suit on them

He's got a fever and she's all about sponging him to health. Yeah right.

Ni yang buat aku rasa nk pijak kaca tanpa pakai kasut nih

He might disappear from her anytime but she's just living in their precious time together..huuu

A Red Velvet Baked to Perfection...or Not?

Hey Hoy Hai!!

HAMAIGAD it's been quite a while since I have been in here *tiup habuk2 sikit*. Hello my imaginary viewers, how y'all have been? I myself have been very busy n busy n busy..ya know, figuring out my life, carik link blog aku ni (aku lupa ok,boleh x?) balancing my hectic schedule n stuff..

Anyhoo, I am here again, and that's all that matters. So what should I babble about today?

Let's start with a story...

Once upon a time, there was a gal named Nabilah Jenab who was a bit lost in her life after graduating. She quit her job as she was not happy with it and she was jobless for 2 months before she could score herself to another new job. While she was jobless, she filled her time by stalking jobstreet and also HR emails, improved her piano/keyboard skills,and she took another hobby that she has always loved, which is, baking. 

Jenab loved baking and her mother loves to eat cakes. So she started to find recipes for cakes and she baked at least a piece of cake almost every weekend for her mother and also her sisters whenever they come home. She would do red velvet cakes, butter cakes, lemon cakes and also chocolate cakes. As Jenab baked her cakes weekend by weekend, she noticed that each of her family member has different comments when it comes to the cakes she baked.

Once, she baked a red velvet cake.

Her mother loved it, saying that it was the best red velvet cake she has ever tasted. Of course, her mother never had any red velvets before to compare it with but wutever, zee mother loved it. Then her sister ate the cake, saying that the cake might be better if it was sweeter. And then her friend ate it, saying that she loved it with the cream cheese while her other friend loved it plain and suggested that perhaps more flour would be better. So Jenab listened to all these comments and took it all in.

After that, Jenab baked again another red velvet. This time she improvised

Her mother loved it, but does not take it with extra cream cheese as she mentioned it was too sweet for her while her sister said the cake would be better if it was softer since Jenab put a bit more flour and many more people gave comments. Again, Jenab took it all in.

And she got confused.

You see, Jenab was actually striving to bake a perfect cake with no flaws. But even as she baked again and again, she could not get everyone to comment that her cake was perfect. Since Jenab is a bit lampi, after a few baking experience, only then she realized something ; that the first cake she had baked was actually the tastiest she had. It suited her and she loved it and she even finished the damned cake.

So she baked again according to the recipe of the first cake. Again, people commented on it and she took it all in. Except this time she didn't try to strive for perfection because the first cake recipe is already perfect for her and she could bake according to other's taste, but then again, why go for the mainstream? She is the one who's going to finish the cake and gain a few pounds for it so by the rule of the thumb, the cake must be tastiest for her.

So after the cake awakening lesson, each time she baked a cake, she would make sure that the cake is exactly according to her taste. Sometimes she might bake a cake slightly less sweet so that her mother can enjoy it too the fullest as well. She can tolerate it because she loves her mother and less sweet = less calorie therefore it's a good thing. But most of the time, she will bake according to her taste and eat it like nobody's business. 

After that she got a job and never baked again. Kidding, she bakes once in a while. -The end-

So what's with the cake?

You see, in life, we might sometimes lose ourselves and we tried to mold our ways to fit with everyone's opinion so that we would feel our life is perfect. It is human nature to feel accepted and stick with the status quo or else we would feel like we need to live as an outcast like Simba in The Lion King. Therefore you might forget that in trying to please everyone , it's you whom you need to please first because at the end of the day, people might love your cake, but you're the one who's gonna finish it so you gotta make sure that you loved the cake most or else you will feel trapped having to finish the cake. At times, we can sacrifice or tolerate a bit to fit with our loved ones and if it's for the better, why not? Just remember,me,myself and I needs to be happy first,only then will we be able to please others. Capiche?  

What works for others might not work for you. NEVER, EVER compare yourself to others. Once in a while is okay for calibration but don't get obsessed by it. DO WHAT SUITS YOU. CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA LIVE WITH IT TILL THE END. Besides, no need to stick to status quo so much. Simba did have fun with Timon and Pumba while in outcast and he did learn some valuable lessons right?

So,yeah, bake your own red velvet. Nyums~

I'm done rambling. Gotta sleep. Work again @.@


Love,
B.

Romeo,Romeo, Where Art Thou Romeo~

Wazzup y'all?? *creek creek~

Just now I was listening to Yuna's Terukir Di Bintang. I dunno why, but that song made me feel damned fluttery and a bit romantic HAHA (I know, I know, I get shudders just by writing this.). And so, automatically after listening to the beat again and again and a bit of googling, I did what I always did with any song I can't get out of my head; I sing and use the keyboard to accompany me!! :D

Ok, now that we've gotten over that part, I just wanna talk about BOYS today, or more like BOYFRIEND. Hence,the topic.

As most of you know, I. NEVER. HAD. A. BOYFRIEND.

Okay, that felt good haha. Maybe a bit awkward. Yeah, thing is, I'm not upset over that fact. To tell you the truth, I have tons of friends who are in relationships and as far as I'm concerned, being single gives you more freedom and more fun cause you never have to worry about any significant half etc..

Doesn't mean I don't want to be in a relationship.

Again,since I've never had any relationship of that sort, I'm always curious. Of what? Well, what you do with your other half, why must teddy bears and flowers be involved, and WHY, WHY do we use icky words (baby, anje, papa & mama (EEW!) , darling etc.).

To be honest, I'm the type of girl that hates words that are too sweet coming from random guy who's just trying to hit on you. Once you're in a relationship that's fine, but as strangers, do you really have to use lovey dovey words?? It makes my skin crawl. Maybe I'm just weird. Or maybe I've never met a guy who can turn me into a total mush by a single word.

I always wondered why I am not able to grab myself a guy. But I guess everyone's different.

Or maybe I'm just too much of a weirdo. Um,I'm just gonna find some comfort now. *munching chocolates*

But I have done some thinking and I whattaya know, I found some theories which might or might not have caused the reason for my lack of love life. Let's start with

1) I watched too many (Korean) Dramas, Movies.

Yeah, I'm a drama addict. Not just Korean, Hollywood (HAMAIGADD One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl ), Japanese, even Malay (me likey Aaron Aziz XD). Apparently dramas are my coping mechanism of escaping bitter realities I sometimes get. Obviously almost every drama is unrealistic, I mean, come on, good looking and rich and has six pack not to mention superb manners hero falling for some common chick in a cheesy situation? That rarely happens in real life. I know that. But that doesn't mean I never hoped for it. I guess by having that hope, I put too much expectation in finding my other half thus narrowing my chances of ever finding one which takes me to #2:

2) Most Guys Are Jerks/Not Husband Material.

It's kinda true ya know (no offense to the male species, especially the fine ones). I met quite a number of men (okayyy maybee not that many cause I'm kinda an antisocial person at times especially with men) and most of them taught me many lessons, mainly about MEN ARE NOT TO BE TRUSTED FULLY UNTIL PROVEN OTHERWISE.

For example, I have met, and actually thought to give a shot to this one pathetic excuse of a man. Turns out, he was just another playah~. And he was not even good-looking. And likes to brag. Urgh, what was I thinking? Oh well, I was young and naive. But the good thing is I learned not to trust men so easily after that. And I learn that people are capable of deceiving to the extreme. So better to hang out with my friends, doing crazy stuff and just doing my own thing, thus we come to #3

3) I Value My Freedom & Independence.

Well, I like to do many things on my own (eat alone, shop alone, play music alone). Okay, I'm not saying that I enjoy being kera sumbang, but doing things on my own without having to wait on others is much more convenient. I also like to do spontaneous stuff with my friends without telling other people first, except for my mum. So if I am to be in a relationship, I need to get someone who is not a controlling ass. That's the hard part. That's why I am so picky. Sheesh.

Despite of all things above, I will not deny that I would love to get someone to share my life with someday, to grow old together, build a family together, and just be my best friend in everything. Hee, I'm starting to get mushy now. Better stop it.

Okay I'm done ranting. Maybe one day someone will come across this post and just sweep me off my feet just like in a fairytale. A girl can dream lalala~

Till then,


Love,
B.

Never Say Never

 What up yo!

How are things everyone?mine is good so far. My weekends, as usual were filled with many activities. Last week I unexpectedly went to Broga. I was planning to spend my weekend curled up in my blanket with a hot milo to soothe my feverish flu, and have a series of marathon with all Nicholas Sparks movies and do some drooling over the sight of Ryan Gosling, Shane West, Channing Tatum etc....

THEN

My friend texted me on saturday night, telling me they're going to Broga. That very night. No preludes, no heads up. @.@. I was so damned torn up between getting my fever down while watching my imaginary boyfriends or to go to Broga with these dummies(my friends) whom I have not met for quite some time. Alas, the promise of nature and feet aches triumphed the sanctuary of my comfy blanket. So I got ready,packed my bags & stuff, no exercise, no nothing (I know I will pay for that) and 2 hours later, my peeps came to my house and off we went to Broga. We actually got a lil bit lost on the way there, but thanks to Mr GPS, somehow we managed to reach there at 2.30 in the morning. But of course, whenever I travel with these dummies, our adventures would always include eating. And this time, we made barbecues at the parking space in Broga,since well, no one was around, so we treat the place like our bapak punya tanah. We ate chicken,hot dogs and some junkfood. Again, I did not stretch, did not have any extreme exercise for the last 2 months and I ate hot dogs before hiking. Oh, did I mention that we hiked right after we ate?Yeap we did. 

We started our journey around 4am. At first we got a bit lost cause it was dark and we only have 2 torchlights. Somehow we got back on the right track and started hiking for real. We went and went and went   slowly, I guess, as I have night blindness so I kept on bising2 suruh suluh lampu. Thank God my friends were patient people. If not, maybe they would hv thrown me into some gaung there muahahahah. So we kept hiking until we reach some flat surface and took a rest there. At that moment I felt the chicken I ate, coming back to my throat with vengeance. I took a deep breath and thought to myself "pdn muka Bella, sape suh x exercise slalu, kan dh terseksa lg time hiking instead of enjoying urself". Yeap, I deserved that. So after mentally hitting myself, we continued our journey to the first peak. The trail was not that hard actually, but somehow I lost my courage after a year of not doing outdoor activities and I forgot all my experiences in hiking. Ok, I might not be a pro,but I ain't no quitter, I'm the type who will try my best to finish something that I've started. Only then will I not have any regrets if I was not able to finish it. Because I know I've tried my best.

Sooo,after my whinings, mostly about me being heavy, and after climbing steep rocks and me being gedik endlessly haha, we finally reached the peak. I was kinda surprised that we reached it so fast cause I thought I would be in pure torture or sumthing before we reach the peak. But let me tell you something, when you have your friends with you, and you did not concentrate on the endless path ahead, but concentrate on the path you are currently trotting into, you will not feel that the goal was too hard to be achieved/reached. At least that works for me. I applied it to my experience in life as well. Do not concentrate on the endless path ahead. It will only bring you down mentally as you will be questioning when you will reach the peak. Concentrate on the path that you are currently stepping into, that way, you will be more careful about taking the best step and trot your way up safely and who knows, the peak might be nearer than you think. Get what I mean?But jgn la x tgk dpn lgsg smpi xnmpk pape dh. There's no harm in looking up sometimes, just to set your expectation and whether you are on the path that you feel is right. But don't do that all the time as it will blind you with the path that you are currently in. Go deep for a while with me here ok? miahahahahhaa

Ok after we reached the peak, we lepak2 there for a while, snapped some pictures, talking with each other (I did the talking mostly, cause others were just sleeping and yawning, I seemed to hv a talent for endless chatter.) After a while we decided to get down and find a bigger spot for sunrise as the peak was starting to get crowded. So down we went. I got to play a bit of damsel in distress while climbing down the steep ropes as stranger guys who were going up were all ready to ever be the gentlemen in helping me and my girlfriends down the ropes. Since I am the type who gets down clumsily, those stranger guys were so damned worried that I might slide and hurt myself. Well, I get scratches and bruises all the time and never cared bout them, but then, chucking my independent female principles for a while, I accepted all the help I got haha. It's nice to be a girl sometimes. Yes, think of what you want on my statement. I don't care miahahaha. So we went to a bigger spot, lay down our tent (for landing purposes) and waited for the sunrise.

SO THE SUNRISE CAME. at 7.20 am.

And we snapped pictures here and there, I did some camwhoring, took some random pics. And after spending an hour there, we started hiking down. I took my time going down as I was busy taking pictures, and apart from that, I had horrible experience of going down during my trip to Mt Kinabalu. If it were not for my friend who stayed with me during my agonizing trip of going down, I'd prolly roll myself down somewhere and rot there till someone comes and rescue me. But Broga wasn't as bad as that. I had no trouble going down. My friend waited for me patiently and so I went down ,sliding down happily, albeit a bit of leg pain. After all of us reached the parking spot, we had ice cream and after a bit of bahan2 each other(mostly aku yg kene), I had to go back cause I have something to attend to on that evening.

So I went home, leg hurting, smelling like a cod fish, and happy as a clam. Hiking always bring me pain,sweat,bruises,makes me look like a helpless fish while climbing and I fall down easily coz I'm a clumsy person. But I get satisfaction from doing it. Why? Because it tests my strength mentally and my perseverance towards achieving my goal. I felt like crying and quitting sometimes, but somehow I did not want to, because I want to test my limits to the extreme, until my legs fail me 100%, until I can't talk or smile.And besides, I think I look cool when I reach the top, even though my face looks like mcm nk mati and my baju is all comot. Besides, I feel calm when I am with nature. So that's why I still like to do it. But I will start exercise again this week and make sure that I am ready when those dummies comes up with last minute plan (yeah, we usually do that).

So here are some pictures that I managed to snap for our trip ^^

Zee view from zee top

We are tough females

One of my camwhoring moments

While waiting for sunrise heeee~

Before total sunrise

There.Put some pics in my blog finally. Muahahahahha

Anyhoo, I am looking forward to go hiking again..maybe somewhere tougher next time? (ceh, berlagak, satg pancit ayam). Moral of the story, PLEASE exercise at least TWICE a week people. Not just for losing weight, but to build stamina and strengthen your body in the long run. I will remind myself to go dance on my dance mat shall I be too lazy to go jogging ngehehehehe...

Till then, so long peeps, Happy working tomorrow on MONDAY (Eep!) T.T

Peace out,

B.

A sprinkle of optimism in the midst of calamities~

What up peeps,

Been a while since my last post. Been busy with many things you know. Life is hard, indeed. But now, I am happier. I have not exactly ridden my inner conflicts fully, but I am trying my best. Time is a very strong ally with me now to heal things and get me back up on my two pretty feet (vain sket). I have gotten a permanent job. Where it is, I'd rather not disclose it here, so publicly. It's not as easy as I thought it was initially, but I don't really feel too depressed about it like I did with the previous job. Oh, and it's not geology. Funny how things work out heh? The pay is not too bad, and I kinda like the environment, which is the most important thing to me. I've worked for a couple of months, barely had time to rest coz my weekends are filled with classes and activities. But the main point is, I AM HAPPY!!

Happy. That, I am. But since I've worked here, it got me thinking, about the purpose of life. The purpose of work. We work 5 days per week (for normal people), so 70% of our lives are spent on our workplace. Then it got me thinking, why do people work? Ok, the obvious reason would be to earn money. I'm all for that. After all, money talks in this world right? But it got me thinking, different people have different goals and purposes in their career. Some want to advance and build a career because that is their definition of success. Some just wanted a job to have money to buy food and pay for rents every month. Some just want a job to kill time and look for other opportunities. I'm not saying any of them is wrong, cause those things are subjective. It's a prerogative that each human has and I'm not going to judge any of it. But the more I see the working class people, the more it got me thinking, what is my prerogative? What do I want to do with my life?

I have seen my friends, working in fields that are popular and promising in our country. They have money, they have careers, everyone is looking up and in awe with their career path. But ironically, some of my friends are not really that happy with what they are doing, even though they supposedly have everything. So, what is the point of us working actually? We want money, yes, but if we are not happy, what does it mean? So are we to do something that we don't like for the sake of money? Is it worth it?

I don't know about others, but for me, I am still optimistic about the thing that I love and make it as something that I do for a living. I love geology, but somehow fate has its twisted way of not letting me in that field. No worries, I have managed to get into another field. But somehow, I wanted more. I don't want my life to be only a routine of doing job, come back home, earn salary, get married, have children, then die. I want my life to be colourful, full of joy, unpredictable, adventurous and most importantly, HAPPY. So I am still struggling to achieve what I love most, and to make it as something that I do for a living. You all know what I love right? So I am still studying, slowly. But the most important thing is, I will not give up. I'll become that freaking turtle in the race. Slow, but steadily going. I am going to do something that I love for a living and  I sure as hell will make my life interesting. I will go traveling, eat good food, do crazy stuff, find someone to share my life with and most important of all, I will make sure that I have no regrets in my life. It's too short for me to become pessimistic and not appreciating it.

Ok, that's all I want to share and blab for today. I'm too lazy to put any pictures here. Just go to my facebook and stalk my pictures. Habis cerita. Well, I'm gonna sleep now coz tomorrow is Monday. Time to work people. Night. Let us all be happy and optimistic. Always. 


Peace out,
B.